| I dreamt about you last night. It was weird, after all, it has been over for so long. In my dream, i showed up from no where, but you spotted me, seemed to be expecting my presence. Where did the story go? nowhere. Either I don't remember anything happening afterwards or there is just simply nothing happening. Just as how the reality goes.
but damn, i miss you. i miss you to death.
I hate myself for doing this. I can't help but turning back everytime, everytime when i thought I am completely over with you.What is it? 5 years since? Is this not an enough time for someone to move on? ---- i hear you dappy. i really do. *hugz*
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| yeah let's hang in there and be stronger than ever after this summer...
we will take some time to re-evaluate our paths for now |
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| dap I am feeling exactly the same about what you wrote two entries ago. This site, after a long while, has become the only place that I can unleash my feelings completely. I am torn. I am in pain. I just want to live in complete solitude. I don't want anyone to show any signs of gratitude to me because I can never return the same kind of favor to them. People who treat me nicely push me further away from them and I bet that's why I feel comfortable in the surroundings of complete strangers. I despire people and I am afraid of them. I don't know what have I become and what am I going to be in future. I wish there's sth perpetual to lean on in life, might it be a person or a faith.
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| I have no obligation to please anyone. Hate me if you want. I don't give a damn to anyone.
I may be having fun out of people's expenses but this is my lifestyle.
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i hear you, dap. |
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